WHY?

Life isn't too good right now!
I'm so low and don't see an End at the moment, but i made a move & I went to the Doctors and he signed me off work and i have been put on antidepressants, i know it will take a while for them to kick in but its so hard right now!
I just feel so lost an alone right now! I know I have my best friend there and I feel soo safe when I'm around her but I know I can't keep putting on her, I can't be a burden like this but i don't know what to do! I need HELP!!
I'm so scared!! I wish I had more courage than I do right now but I guess i just ave to take each day as it comes, BABY STEPS as they say!!
I just wonder how I'm gonna get out of this! How I'm gonna be good again, I just don't see an end right now!!
But I'm scared I'm gonna loose everything they way I'm feeling right now!!
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