Tears are the safety Valve of our hearts!!
Why do some people think that its wrong to cry or to let tears fall!
Most times when i feel tears welling up, I bite them back an hold them in, as if i cry i will be judged, I will be seen as week!!
But to day talkin to my mum my tears fell, I've had a hard week last week an fort back so many tears that when they came i just let them fall an i don't see the harm, I wasn't totally devastated, my heart was just alittle week but yet I AM IN THE WRONG for crying WHY?
She asked why i didn't want to go on holiday with the family an all i said was it the same thing every year an she said you need to learn to bite your tonge, I DID, thats all i did last year and it wasn't a holiday for me not one bit! I came back more exsorted than when i went, i came back more broke then when i went, i came back feeling like i hadn't had a holiday at all bar maybe a few days when i took my self off an sat quietly in the local starbucks, it was the only way to get away from everything!!
I don't have anyone i can chat to while i'm there! I don't have a partner to go chill with an have a drink, i don't have someone to hang out with! My bro & sis inlaw have each other an i'm not that close to my mum, to go chill in the bar, I feel judge by her if i have a drink, so i can't drink that much while on holiday i'm lucky if i have 2 all week, i'm not saying i want to go mad an get totally pissed out me head but a good couple of drinks would be good with out feeling judged!!
Do any of you guys feel judge by what u do or how u act?
An why is it family make us feel the worse of all!?!
Tuesday, 5 July 2011
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