At the moment I HATE living here.............
At mo my bro an his family are living with me & my Mum, so thats 6 of us in one house, Me, Mum, My bro, his other half & my niece & Nephew.
An I hate living here now they've moved it
1) Jess (my brothers other half) hardly does anything yet i work flat out at 2 jobs and go to work with a cold & chest infection and she is taken to bed wiv what i would say was hardly even a cold!!
2) I feel like a stranger in my own home, some days so alone, as if its all my fault!
3) They (not my mum) are so inconsiderate of others, they make noise when other r trying to sleep, leave others to clean up after them do i need to go on......
And this is tearing me up inside I am starting to feel sooooo low and I don't ave a clue what to do about it, Normally I know when I start to get low what to do about it but this Lowness can't be fixed with tablets 4 depression coz the main factor of cause won't change 4 some time!!
I can tell them how i feel but then I'm made into to the guilty party!!
I try to talk to my mum but i hate putting her in the middle it breaks my heart to see mum up set!! I love her sooo!!
I am crying writing this and all I want is a giant HUG
I feel so alone........
Like the world is against me, like everything i do is wrong & like everything is my fault, an as a survivor my other feelings of guilt coming flooding back an it hurts even more!! An i don't know where to stand or what to do!
I'm sorry 4 this negative post but i needed to get it off my chest.........
Love to you all guys
Keep well
HUGS
xXx
<3
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